Le Tour De France

I am no cyclist,I'm too lazy for that, one day I might get in to it, although there has been several false dawns! I do love watching stuff in the Velodrome though and Le Tour De France.

Le Tour is probably the most underrated sporting event in the UK, I'm not quite why we don't get in to it as much as other country's, but what they do is so impressive, really pushing what is physically impossible.

A lot of you wont know much about it, so I will urge you to put ITV 4 on today from 2:30 and watch should be the deciding stage of this years race. It will be a battle between current leader Alberto Contador and second place Andy Schleck to the finish at the top of the 2114 metre Col Du Tourmalet, the end of a stage that has 3611 metres of climbing in total.

Impressive.

Watch it.

U2

U2 is all I've been able to listen to recently. It's been on my ipod for a couple of weeks now, so whenever I'm driving that's what's on. I did change it once, but after a couple of songs it went straight back to U2. On the plus side, it's their older stuff, genius. On the negative side, it's actually "The Best of 1980-1990". I know I know, I should actually have the proper albums, not just a best of, but I haven't! I think there is a reason why it is all I listening to though. Let me explain.

I'm going to be pretty honest so I hope that's ok. I've been struggling for the past few weeks, really struggling with my faith. God has just seemed so distant, I've had more questions now then I've ever had in my life, and to tell you the truth, this is the first time I'm actually admitting it publicly. Is God really there? For me he has just seemed so distant. How can he forgive me? What does my future hold? I'm frustrated. It's me not putting effort in though, I know it. I can see he is already doing stuff for me, but he is a relational God which means I have to put some effort in too. Normally if I'm not reading my bible enough I am just chatting to God throughout the day, but I'm not even doing that, I'm not in a good place.

It's singing along to some of Bono's searching lyrics that has helped me realise I'm not in a good spot. In "I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For" there is the line:

You broke the bonds
And you loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Oh my shame
You know I believe it

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

And that's the thing, deep down I do believe it. I just have to get back to that place of being close with God and striving to be closer. For non Christians who are wondering what I am on about, at the moment I feel like I've had an argument with you best friend, where you know you are in the wrong and being scared to approach them again because you think they might reject. Although I know God wont reject.

Anyway, that was deep.

Lovely chilled family gathering at my Grandma's last night. Strange how big these gatherings are getting now!

At the top of this post you will see a snazzy little logo I made today! I've also come up with an idea of trying to do a bit of freelance work myself if I can, audio producing etc. Even if I don't get any work from it, I think I am going to start a website and put some of my own work up as a portfolio, what's the worst that can happen?

Comment's on the logo would be appreciated!

And so would your prayer for general life too!

Thanks.

One year, four days.

One year, four days. That's how long I've had this blog! Unfortunately I've been terrible at actually writing it regularly, sorry about that. Although I'm not sure if many people actually read this, so I'm not sure who to be sorry to! To mark the anniversary I have redesigned the page, a bit more simplistic now. Hope you like it.

The picture above has no real use, I just thought I need something there. It's looking down from Pen Y Fan in the Brecon Beacons, an easy walk up to the top and a beautiful view, I'd recommend it! Actually, my family are going to the Brecon Beacon's in a couple of weeks for a family holiday to celebrate my parents 40th wedding anniversary! That's a long time. Hopefully I will get to walk up Pen Y Fan again.

I'm currently back in Petworth for the summer now, and after a couple of months doing exam invigilating at the local school I have nothing to do for a while! I have a few idea's as to how to pass the time:

1-Go on a team at New Wine next week. (If you are going let me know!)

2-Decorate my room at last.

3-Invent something.

4-Learn how to make Apps for Android.

5-Do nothing.

I'd love some help on making my decision, so let me know what you think!

This is a boring blog for you lot I've just realised, I'm not being very inspiring, I blame my back, it's hurting for no reason.

I'll write again soon.

I promise.

If I don't, tell me off.

Bye.

x